Mark and I went to counseling yesterday, and we really didn't have anything to talk about, so she just talked to us individually about what was going on in our lives. She called us her "poster children", that we walked the walk, and said we could go longer to see her next time. I feel like everything has been put out in the open and thoroughly discussed, and we've each been open to changing for the other one.
I've been to my new school for 2 days now, and the jury is out about what I think about it. People are definitely nicer there, I guess I'm just out of my comfort zone. I don't feel like I'll EVER progress past 120, but maybe I always feel that way in every speed. I definitely remember asking teachers in previous speeds "Do you really think I can do this?" trying to get encouragement from anywhere I could. I see people in my speed for a year, I don't want to be one of those people! I don't think I even have enough financial aid to be one of those people!
I haven't really had any bipolar symptoms in awhile, or maybe I have and I just don't remember them because it hasn't been recent enough. I didn't handle Mark's comments about our marriage or me very well, so I don't know if that's a bipolar symptom or just that I'm a sensitive person. I don't think any woman would feel good about their husband telling them they thought they were overweight and needed to lose weight. But, now I'm grateful that he did, because our counselor said she has many men who come in and feel that way about their wives and can't get the courage to tell them, but tell her they just don't find them attractive any more and they don't know what to do, while the wives are just going along thinking everything is fine. Now Mark compliments my appearance, he's definitely good about giving positive feedback, maybe it's just to encourage me to keep running and dieting, but who cares, doesn't everyone like compliments?