I got an A in the only class I'm taking at school this quarter! It's only one class, but it's 3 hours a day, Monday - Friday. I took a smaller course load this quarter because this was my first quarter at the new school and academics had started the week before I began. Starting in January, I'll have an extra class. I used to have so much leisure time, now I find myself with very little since I started my new job. I'm still in training, but it's almost over, and I have no idea how busy I'll be once I start. I'm thinking the more busy, the better, because that would mean the more money I'd make. And that would mean the better I would feel about contributing to the household, and how much more self-sufficient I would feel, which is very important to me. But I can't work too much, I need my main focus to be on school. That's the whole idea of getting a part time job, and especially one where I can make my own hours.
Mark and I have good days in counseling, and we have had a few bad days in counseling. In our last counseling session, it went well. The session was partially focused on just Mark, with her asking if he'd considered coming in by himself. She keeps saying he's going through an "exostential crisis", but whatever it is, it makes him unhappy with life in general. He's not necessarily depressed, but he's unhappy, how do I explain the difference? Unfulfilled, perhaps? Maybe he IS depressed, I'm not a therapist or psychiatrist.
It's December the 16th, and we still have no plans for Christmas, none whatsoever. We have hardly talked about it, just about what we do NOT want to do. I'm afraid we'll decide to go to his parent's house at the last minute, and then be scrambling for children's gifts at the last minute. I'll have no idea what to get them at that point. I'm pretty much over the gift giving thing, I don't care anymore, but now Mark is pretty dead set against spending the money. It would make quite a statement to go to his parent's house without gifts for the kids, and that's a statement I'm not prepared to make. It's just...the people with 3 kids have to buy 2 gifts, the people with 2 kids have to buy 3 gifts, and people with no kids have to buy 5 gifts, and we don't buy cheap gifts. The parents give us nothing in return, barely a nod of acknowledgement of the gift we gave their children. It's just EXPECTED of us. Who wants to give a gift like that? Okay, maybe I'm not completely over the gift giving thing, but I don't mind just doing it and getting it over with to get through Christmas in peace.
I'd been feeling really lonely this year around the holidays, like I have no family that's close to me, because, well, I actually don't, so reconnecting with family members has been a wonderful Christmas gift. It's really brightened up my mood!