Staying Home

I transferred attending school from on ground to online yesterday.  It was better than taking a leave of absence because of my persistent cough.  I couldn't keep missing school, and the pulmonary specialist appointment isn't until Friday.  Even if I somehow managed to make it to Friday and not get kicked out of school for attendance, he won't be able to "cure" me on Friday.  Best case scenario is he'll set me up with medication if he knows what is wrong with me, which I pray he does!  My family physician said he thought I had cough variant asthma, so we'll see.  I don't think I've actually been officially diagnosed.

Staying home is SO BORING!  I have my transcription job, though, which keeps me busy.  I'm waiting for the online instructor to call me and tell me how to attend classes online, but so far, no one has called.  It's nice not to have to wake up at 5:00 in the morning to go run before school, yet at the same time, it's not so nice to not have a reason to wake up at 5:00 in the morning.

I was reading my doctor's site that I'll be going to on Friday, and it sounds pretty standard that for asthma, he also does allergy testing.  For allergy testing, it said you can be on no antidepressants.  I assume that would include bipolar medications as well.  How is that going to work, exactly?  I have no idea if I have any withdrawal symptoms from some of the meds I take!  But I'm really freaking out ahead of time.

Last Friday I weighed, and I'm finally down to 149.2.  I tried on a bridesmaid dress that I hadn't worn in about six years and it fit!  As well as suits I bought for work that I started for a job that year.  I still have at least 24 more pounds to lose, but it was quite a breakthrough moment for me.  Today was pretty warm in Texas, and I wore a pair of old shorts that I hadn't been able to fit into in YEARS!  Let's just say they're high waisted they're so old - Mark laughed when I showed him the waist, but he also said I looked great.  I've been much smaller a lot more recent than that, while low waistbands were in style and have a closet full of clothes just waiting for me to get down to 125, but getting into the clothes I now do was a pretty big deal. 

Can I survive being at home, working and going to school from home until the beginning of April?  I don't know, but I'm going to try.  I think LOTS of trips to the nail salon, hair salon, tanning salon, etc., are in my near future to get out of the house.  I really don't have a choice at this time, I should be glad I have options. 

I love this!  It is SO true!


Bipolar Alcoholic :-))-: said...

Wow that's rough to have to change your life so drastically because of this stupid cough! I hope they can fix it for you. As for going off the anti-depressants, probably not a good idea. Maybe they can figure out how to run the tests without taking you off the meds. Keep your head up girl!

ashmc2 said...

Hi KC. I'm Ash. I quit doing my BP blog. I got back on last night and posted for the first time in 4 years. I decided to go down my blogroll and check in on the blogs
I used to read. You were actually the only person with an active blog. I am glad to see and amazed you are still methodically documenting your daily journey and you seem to be dictating and in control of your life. That is great. You will be the only link left when I clean up my sidebar; sad but funny!

KansasSunflower said...

Ash - through the years, I've noticed it is SO common for bipolars to start blogs and discontinue them a few months or a year later, and it's frustrating when you get all involved in their lives - HA! I attribute to them hopefully getting better and not needing to get out their feelings anymore than the alternative...

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