I want to NOT CARE, to be completely detached from what people think about me, from how they feel about me, from what I think and feel about them, maybe from caring about people and the world in general. Life seems like it would be so much easier if I JUST DID NOT CARE. It's not that I don't want to have emotions - I like the ups and downs (well, liking the downs is a bit much, but how can you have ups without feeling the downs?) I am just tired of caring what people think about anything at all. Even about what they think about any subject - I don't want to care. I don't want to be passionate about anything, that requires too much emotion - when it's good, it's great, but it can also cause anger, and then you care about what people think about an issue and I don't want that.
I'm annoyed about people caring about who will be the better president when both choices suck. Every presidential election, I always hear people say "I'm just going to vote for the lesser of two evils". Why does it have to be that way?
Maybe I'm making absolutely no sense, but I don't know how not to care, and I desperately want not to. I would feel SO much better if I had that peace of mind of not caring.