I'll send emails to people, many times they won't reply. They're not sad or complaining or anything - mostly asking them about themselves. Yes, I have blown off ALL of my friends for a very long time, and am just now coming out of my shell. Maybe I should have expected some of this. But it's not like THEY tried or broke down my door trying to be friends. No one has done that.
It's very lonely. I have marriage counseling today, which I LOATHE and have not been back since the big blow-out, and am NOT looking forward to it. I'm always afraid she's going to ask what we do with our friends, because the answer is, for me, nothing. I do nothing with friends. I have no friends. Sure, I have "facebook friends", but those aren't real friends. Those are electronic connections, many with narcissistic tendencies that just want to show the world how wonderful they are in whatever way they perceive wonderful to be - through family, riches, being clever, beautiful, success, being the most perfect Christian in the whole world, the most ethical and politically correct person in the whole world, there are many ways people perceive being wonderful. Those people, and they do include the two people mentioned above, are not my friends.
A new quarter at school starts tomorrow. Maybe I won't be so lonely and sad and bored and will get my mind off of all this.
And, I did happen to score Championship Tickets to the Rangers Game (provided they make it that far), and Mark is going to go with me, so that's massively awesome! : )