I think it's time for me to let go of people in Texas. There's no reason to hold on to them. I wasn't friends (meaning, go out and do things with someone) with anyone when I was there any more, why try to maintain old friendships long distance now that I'm gone? The technical age has brought us facebook, twitter, all of these great ways to stay in touch but maybe that's not always for the best. I felt very lonely when I was living in Texas for quite a long time and I now have a fresh start and have found many avenues to meet new people, but it's tiring. I have a women's club meeting I'm going to attend, a running club I'm joining, all in the new city I'm moving to next week when our house closes. It would be nice if someone, ANYONE, would reach out to me for a change instead of me initiating all the time. But, how would the women's club or running club know I existed if I hadn't contacted them? So I guess that's not fair. Mark is hoping we'll actually have neighbors we can be friends with this time (as opposed to just being friendly), but I'm skeptical. I have yet to see that work out but people really are quite friendly here, so who knows?
Then there's the whole social aspect of Mark's job. I didn't fully realize how many events he'd be attending where I would be expected to go as his wife. I had thought that maybe the wives were friends outside of their husband's jobs, but no, it doesn't look like they are. It doesn't mean that I CAN'T be.
Maybe I just don't have anything in common with anyone. I'm a certain age with no children, and women my age always talk about their children. I have nothing to say. I don't have a career and am in school, and that's definitely not the norm either. A lot of people make their friends with people at work. Or..perhaps there's just something wrong with me. I could be expecting too much too soon. But right now, I don't have any time to do anything with a friend. Every weekend is packed with activities and now that we're moving next weekend, we'll have a lot to do.
My new eating habits, or diet, whatever you want to call it, is going okay. I just need to figure out what I can eat that is okay when I'm starving to death! I don't want to eat anything that isn't good for me, but I didn't buy anything at the store for snacks. I boiled some eggs like the doctor said and had one when I got home since he said that was a quick way to get protein which will satisfy better, but I lost the eating plan he gave me when I left, so I couldn't shop for the foods I should be eating. I scoured the internet for that eating plan but it is nowhere to be found. It's just a simple, plain, healthy eating plan broken up by food groups and calories that I thought would be everywhere, maybe even from a government health agency, but no, I couldn't find it.
I suppose the Phentermine could be affecting my mood, that crossed my mind. I've taken it before and I don't remember it doing that, but that doesn't mean it can't happen. However, I guess I can't expect to be loving life every day, especially when I'm walking a mile in windy 15 degree weather!