Oh my gosh, I am so frustrated with doctors! Like I've said, they don't listen to me. And yes, my family doctor said, when I said "the doctors said it's asthma, but I don't believe them", he said "of course, why would you believe a doctor?" in a very joking and good humored way that wasn't meant to be sarcastic, but seriously, they can absolutely be wrong. I know what I experience, and what they've said just isn't true.
I swear, sometimes I feel like maybe there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with me. Maybe I'm a hypochondriac, maybe this is all in my head, it's psychosomatic. I just need to "snap out of it" - everything, the whole works. Perhaps I'm melodramatic, make too big of a deal over things that others don't. But I've just gotten so tired of simply putting up with things, living with things that effect my every day life. I mean, what would that new family doctor think if I went to his office with allergy type symptoms, but they are so bad right now, just to show him what I was talking about? Is that really worth an office visit? I'm not sick like when you go to the doctor for antibiotics, yet...how do I show him what I'm talking about? When you don't have the symptoms, it's so hard to explain what you mean. I don't even know for sure that he believes me, but maybe if he sees what I mean, he'll see why I don't think it's asthma. Okay, maybe I do have asthma at times, I don't know, I could possibly buy that, but THIS isn't asthma.
I just want to be able to run. That's all, and unpack the boxes in my office, but I know that at least is allergy related because you walk into that room and the dust from the boxes overwhelm you. Mark commented on it today and said we should get the maids to start cleaning the spare bedrooms. No allergy medication works, I've tried them all, prescription and non-prescription.
Oh my gosh, I hate whining, but if I don't have my blog to whine to and poor Mark hears too much of it already, where else can I go except the doctor, who tells me the wrong thing and doesn't convince me I have what I don't think I have? Where's the proof? No one has been able to induce an asthma attack in a doctor's office, which they should be able to do, so that's just one more reason it doesn't make sense. AND they can't fix me with inhalers, not these allergy type symptoms, so it totally can't be asthma.