There's a website I found awhile back, when I first was considering the hysterectomy called Hyster Sisters. It's so awesome, the women are very supportive, answer questions, you can read their stories and get an idea of what to expect, on ALL ends of the spectrum - from the good, bad, and ugly, so I feel somewhat prepared for anything - but you never know until it actually happens. There all kinds of tips about everything I can think of, and all kinds of things I would never, ever would have thought of.
So I posted about how freaking emotional I had been and this morning I read all their replies about how they had felt the same - but even so much worse! Getting sleeping medications and anxiety medications days or weeks before their surgeries because they were so upset and emotional - and yes, I already take those, but...they hadn't been I'm assuming and never had, so it tells me that yes, it's normal and I'm not even on the extreme end.
Now I finally feel ready to just get this over with. I'm no longer dreading it. I feel like I'm running up the hill and I want to get to the top and start my way down to recovery and feeling better. So much dreading, so much worry and anxiety, so much waiting, ugh! Just get it over with already. Tick-tock-tick-tock.
Once I'm there though, I know I will be scared out of my mind and want to run the hell out of there!