Lots of Changes

Over a month ago, my psychiatrist prescribed Topomax for my migraines.  She asked how often I was getting them which I had not considered, but it was about half of the month.

Since I started taking it, I have had one migraine not long after I started taking it, and that is it!  I feel SO much better.  How in the world did I live that way?  No choice I suppose.  Now just cold like allergy symptoms that I am working on.

I have had some personality changes though since I started taking Topomax.  Some good, some not so good.  Since it has basically given me my life back, I need to work it out.

But since I have been taking Topomax, and I guess that is the reason, it has been since then, I have been spending a lot of money.  It is not big purchases, they are all small, but they add up.

I think the craziest "small purchases" thing I have done that has added up is my new addiction to beauty boxes.  I have had a subscription to a $10 beauty box for at least a year, but for some reason when I received them in the mail, I would rummage through them, set them down, and that is where they stayed.  But since I have been taking Topomax, I have been into organizing the house (my other personality change), and have found these boxes and using the samples.  I have really enjoyed trying new products and taking better care of myself over all.  That means about a year of samples!  And I got to organize them!!

Great, right?  Except....I got carried away with ordering more subscriptions.  I now have five beauty box subscriptions.  They are not all makeup, I mean, I am not THAT crazy (ha).  So...how can I NOT have the one from Sephora?  Then there is one from Ipsy that is only $10.  I am working on my nails and have no good polish, and cannot find any, so there is one for polish - Julep.  I am the most into skin care and moisturizing right now, so the dermatoligist curated beauty box is the most important to me - Beauty Fix.  Those serums and dermatologist recommended moisturizers, full size products, are in the hundreds.

Why the fascination with beauty boxes?  I have always, always hated spending $$$ on good quality makeup, skin care, etc. products and finding I hate them.  But I get a whole box at less than what maybe one full size product costs.  So I had just not been trying anything or using drugstore products with the fear of investing in something and wasting my money.

I do not intend to keep all of these subscriptions.  I simply did not know which was the best, even with all of the reviews.  I am only going month to month, and will cancel after a few months.

Or when Mark figures it out and says something.

The other thing is a positive.  It was not long at all after I started taking Topomax that I had this compulsion to organize the house.  It was hard to walk past something and not want to stop and "fix it".  My house has always been a mess - cluttered, not dirty, all of it mine.  I guess I was lazy, I did not care, but honestly, most of the time I did not even SEE IT, so it did not bother me!

Not so anymore.  It drives me crazy.  The first time the maids came after I started taking Topomax, they were shocked and asked me if we were moving.  Ha!  There was so much clutter missing, as well as boxes on the floor where I was still packing things up that I was not throwing away (coats in the coat closet, etc.)  I have a long way to go.

That has caused problems though.  I am moving things around that has not been moved in maybe years, so it has a ton of dust on it, behind it, under it, etc.  My dust allergy has been going *crazy*!  I need to get a dust mask.

I did tell my psychiatrist about my obsession to organize the house.  She said that is an uncommon side effect of Topomax.  It can slow your mind down and make you see the details of everything.  That does explain it - I did not really see these things before, and now they drive me crazy and I *have* to fix them.

So...that brings me to another thing I have been buying.  Lots and lots and LOTS of storage bins - all sizes.  We did not have any, and I see we simply can not have enough of them.  My obsession is not CLEANING, it is ORGANIZING.  And I LOVE IT.

It is the weirdest thing.  I have never been an organizer, never liked it.  And now?  It would be heaven to spend an entire day being able to work on the house, organizing areas that are a mess.  The house is over 4000 sq ft PLUS the basement, so while yes, I have done what I can while also working from home, there is still a lot to do from just living in the house for 4 years.

I have been putting off making wreaths.  I know, I know.  I think I absolutely hate my job when I HAVE to do it.  Yes, everybody HAS to do their jobs, but I always wanted being creative and making things to be pleasant and enjoyable, and now it just isn't.

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