I don't even know where to start. I'm worried that Dr. S. won't get privileged at the facility he's going to work at for next several months. And why should he? He probably shouldn't, and he probably shouldn't have been approved by us, either.
But the real concern I have is over my numbers. I have 3 other recruiters nipping at my heels, just waiting and wanting and praying for me to slip. I can't make 100 dials for some reason. I don't know if it's because I don't want to, or what. Dr. W. shouldn't be able to get approved for medmal, yet I was going to insist that he did. I don't know why I lie. I'm going to get caught one day, and then what do I do? Maybe I'll never get caught, but I think I already have with Dr. S. 3 other recruiters are trying to take me down. And K. is doing a good job at it, too. Her numbers may be just as good as mine, maybe better for next month? I'm not sure. Of course, she's been there 4 to 6 months longer than I have. And my boss does not see me in a leadership position. I don't know what to do to change that perception. Maybe he sees me as too quiet. Not assertive enough. I've got to get the information to him that I used to manage, but how.
Right now, my main concern is my numbers. Present as many docs as I can. Find as many docs as I can. Reach Senior first. That's my goal. K. may beat me. I don't know that D. has it in him to reach Senior before me, unless his team does it for him. K. has that fire to do it. I don't know that T. does. I need to stop looking at numbers - I'm only wasting my own time. I need to concentrate on my own, only, like I used to. I'm getting packets back that take time to go through, I'm having to do a lot of followups that I didn't have before, the clinic list isn't so great anymore, but I can go through it, maybe find retiring docs. Try the pipeline thing. I need Derms and especially ORS. If I have ORS, I should have the numbers. But those take a lot of my time to find. W
I just wish there wasn't this competition between the four of us. I wonder if it was done on purpose. I need to be political about it, just concentrate, like D. said, on what I can control within my own cubicle, and work on 100 dials a day. Stay extra if I need to to get in the 100 dials, but get them in somehow.
I need to stay incredibly motivated, and not get lazy. I have a great team that likes to use my docs, and I should count my blessings because of that. D. and K. have that too, and so does T., he's on my same team! They treat T. as the lead recruiter...when I reach Senior, and he's not, will they still?
I wonder, if that actually happened, what would happen as far as the power struggle between us all. Am I capable of reaching Senior? Are they? I have at least 50 or more doctors that D. has, and about the same as K. And T. I utilize the JB list more than anyone else, they just try to call it to get more packets out. Those people actually want job offers, not calls to get their packets in.
I'm learning all of this as I go along. I wonder what else I will learn. I don't think I'm as aggressive as I used to be. I see myself sending out more info again and less packets.
However, I am using some of T.'s doctors that she never used and placing them...at least one- Dr. O'K, and maybe (hopefully, God please!) Dr. A.S.
JM is coming on strong though...he's' fighting for his job...T. told me that he will be in Final Warning if he does not have a new doc for February, and he doesn't, but he does for March. I wonder how that works, if it starts over, or what. I hope I never find out. T. also told me that someone who is very successful, from what I know, got written up for not placing enough people in their own territory. I wonder what else you can be written up for...I just don't want to be written up for anything ever again...I am NOT untouchable. And I'm showing myself as unreliable by being out of work as I have been lately.
I have so much anxiety about this all of the time, and D. won't shut up and get to work all of the time! I just need to tell him!
How can I succeed at work? I wish someone would help me, but then I wouldn't feel good about my success, because it wouldn't be mine. I want to be the first Senior. And if I am, the first Senior for several months. That would make me VERY happy, I think. If anything, the first to hit 175.