As for the weight and eating issue, I'm going to stop talking about it after tonight.
I've figured it all out, so there's no need to record what I ate, how many calories, what I feel about it, etc. I've been this way for a year and a half - eat an Egg McMuffin (x amount of calories), I've skipped lunch forever now, and I've waited until after I take my nighttime meds - and they've kicked in, around 9:00-9:30p to eat dinner, for years now. The only problem with that was - with Seroquel, I hate the whole frickin' house.
Now without Seroquel (I think I took about 18-19mg just now), I'm no longer hungry after I take my meds at night. So I'm now used to eating something for breakfast, skipping lunch, and waiting until 9:00 to have dinner. And when I ate dinner, I was FAMISHED beyond belief because that was my side effect on Seroquel. Only, now I'm not famished. I'm not even hungry. Perhaps I'm comparing it to how I used to feel on Seroquel and my body is reacting to the change. But I attribute my not being hungry to Adderall and Zonegran (my doctor prescribed that for me as an appetite suppressant and mood stabilizer because I kept complaining about Seroquel).
I figured this all out last night. I had an egg mcmuffin for breakfast, and around 9:00p, I knew I had to eat something, but I wasn't hungry. So I made myself eat a protein bar before bed. That was (this is the last time I'll do this) 600 calories for the day. And today - I wasn't tired, hungry, nothing. I was just fine.
So I'll continue my regiment. Egg Mcmuffin for breakfast, protein bar before bed. As long as I don't skip either meal, I'll be fine. 600 calories a day, logically, doesn't sound like enough, but physically, it's not harming me at all. I have energy, I'm sleeping just fine without Seroquel, and this eating pattern has been going on for almost two years.
NOTHING HAS CHANGED. If I had a problem then I've had it for years now, but it's been buried behind Seroquel. So I guess nothing's wrong with me. (shrug) I suppose I could discuss it with my psychiatrist but....well....if something's not broken, why fix it? I would feel ridiculous even bringing it up with him. He would probably look at me and think "yeah, so what do you want ME to do about it?"
So that's it. Except for recording my weight once a month, no more talk about it. I'm done OBSESSING over it every frickin day. I have a regiment that I like, it makes me feel in control (maybe that's not the right words to use), and I'm not over-eating.
My coworkers no longer demand I take a lunch and just go without me while I work through lunch, so that issue is resolved.
So what happened to me today...
I did have a quite a bit of anxiety at work today, and started worrying it was because of the Seroquel. I had to take 3 1mg Klonipin. I am hoping it is because I took my medication this morning, took a bath, and then didn't remember if I took an "orange pill" (Adderall) or not, so I took another one. THAT medication is enough to give anyone anxiety, and two? So I'll judge by my anxiety level tomorrow.
My lunatic boss was gone today and will be until next Wednesday, so I had a pretty good day. Nothing of real interest really happened that's worth recording - I guess I'm not very creative with my thoughts during the week anymore. I just work too much - leave for work around 7:00 and get home around 7:30 - 8:00.
That's about it...