And he really is a jackass. I'm tired of how he treats me, and maybe he was just mad at me yesterday for coming in late, and then I left right at 5:00p instead of staying late at all. I already put in my 2 7:00p days, so he couldn't say anything. He's just RUDE. I should have done this, I should have done that. I should have said this, I should have said that. He should go to hell, that's what he should do. The thing is, I think he means well - he is trying to train me to be better, it just comes across badly. But meaning well and actually DOING something are two different things, and I'm tired of explaining him away as "meaning well". Meaning well isn't good enough anymore.
I've decided...I DO want to move to Minnesota. I even applied for a job there because I am very worried I won't be able to find a job, and they wanted me to send a Word copy of my resume! It is for a Recruiter's position, even! That's why I applied for it - I thought "how often are there going to be Recruiter's positions available in this town of 80,000 people?". The more I study the town, the more beautiful I see that it is. And living in a smaller town...that would be so nice. EXCEPT. No shopping? No malls? No good place for me to get my hair done? What about a psychiatrist? And where the HELL am I going to work? It's no longer "where am I going to be a Recruiter", but "when will a Recruiter position ever open up?". This particular position wants an MBA and 2 years experience! Are you frickin kidding me? Sometimes my Big-5 experience trumps the degree portion.
I wonder if I want to move so I can quit my job because I hate it. At other times, I wonder if I will find a job that I like as much as I like my job now. It's so confusing.
I've (and Mark has agreed) decided it's time for me to get a new (used) car. I've decided on a used Mercedes AMG or a BMW CI (I think it's a CI). I'm trying to lease one, but I may have to buy one if my credit isn't good enough. I haven't been able to get one at ALL because Mark and I have been at our jobs less than 6 months, plus, my credit isn't stellar. I applied for a car loan the other day, and BOOM, all of these places want to lend me money, so I called a leasing company instead. I wonder how hard it will be to lease a car? I have a feeling I'm on a "second chance" loan basis. But...if a Mercedes dealership called me after running my credit and asked me if I wanted a new or used Mercedes, could it really be that bad? I know, I shouldn't speculate.
Mark is NOW worried he won't get the job in Minnesota, or they'll offer him something he'll have to turn down. I told him if God wanted him to be there, then we will be, right? If not, then...we won't.
I'm going to call in to work on Sat. or Sun. to my boss's voicemail and tell him I have to go to Kansas due to illness in the family so I can go to Minnesota. After being out part of yesterday and now today, he probably won't be too happy.
Fine, he can let me go, then. But I know he won't. Well, he might.