As far as my minor depression meltdown on Sunday, I think it had to do with several things. I just realized I was PMS'ing, I was going through the "disappointment" of realizing I may not get a call back about the Big-4 job, and still upset about the Cancun/Hurricane Dean trip. I'm okay now, but boy, am I EXHAUSTED!
I'm working 3 12 hour days this week (Tuesday, Weds, Thursday), and was GOING to take 1/2 day off on Friday, but my boss called me into an office this afternoon. Apparently, I'm 8 days "in the hole" for paid time off. He was really cool about it, though. I have a pretty big commission check coming out of my next paycheck, and he asked if I wanted 1 or 2 days to come out of it - but only if I wanted. I said sure - take 2 days out. Why not get it over with, you know? Then, he said I could make up my time by working extra hours - even from home on the weekends by just searching the job boards for candidates and sending him the hours I worked. So now I'm not leaving early Friday, I'm staying all day, and I'm SO TIRED! He actually left the whole thing up to me - to make up the time or not. The thing is, I would really like to take another trip again soon enough, so...I'd like to "get out of the hole" as soon as possible. I think it was cool of him that he was going to pay me for the time I took off without any "PTO", which is why I said sure, take out 2 days of pay from my commission. Now, I COULD have said take the whole thing out, but I just didn't want to do that after spending $1300/ticket for Mark and I to fly from Cancun to Atlanta (not even home!) to leave before Hurricane Dean.
Do you KNOW what he said, though? He said that *I* have the BEST commission plan of anyone in the company? I call "bullshit" on that. I don't believe it. Maybe of all the Recruiters, but I just can't believe of "everyone". I know that I have the best commission plan of anyone I know - of those I know what they are, which are kept pretty secretive. HOWEVER. It was HIS decision to make - to keep me or I'd leave for a company that offered me the EXACT same commission plan. What a guilt trip, eh? He then said I could pick a company of his, and I could be the Account Manager for it. Weird, huh? He also said, AGAIN, that I PROMISED him I would give him 1 year of committed service, without looking for another job, not answering any calls for recruiting positions (and he said he KNEW I was getting calls, but I know he was just guessing), and I told him I was 100% committed. The Big-4 is just a distant memory, and I don't think I want to travel anymore, anyway. If they actually called me now? Sure, I'd go ahead and pursue it - what would I have to lose?
I'm just too tired to write anymore. I THINK my Dad is doing better after his suicide attempt. I've been working too much to call him and check on him. Mark will be home from Chicago tomorrow night. I've been trying to go to bed much earlier so I can be up by 5:00 - 5:30a to make it to work by 7:00a every morning, but working until 7:00p is KILLING me. I've also been working out every day at lunch, which I hope is helpful.
That's about it. Sorry it's all about work, but that's all I've been doing....