Yesterday after work, I came home, went to bed and fell asleep until Mark got home. Neither of these things are LIKE me AT ALL. Right now I feel tired even though I drank coffee, had my Adderall and Phentermine. I'm thinking of finishing this Blizzard and going to bed. Again, so NOT LIKE ME.
Yet, the other thing that's drastically changed is my nighttime sleeping pattern. I can't fall asleep. It will be almost 1:00a, and I will still be wide awake, and have to go take more klonipin, and then it's all I can do to wake up when my alarm goes off in the morning. Don't get me wrong - I still go to bed at the same time, but I'm not as sleepy. My nighttime meds just aren't "kicking in" and making me sleepy. I take that back. I'm TIRED, but perhaps my mind isn't shutting off? It doesn't seem like that's what it is, though.
Friday, I got frustrated and went to my boss about work related issues. They had nothing to do with him, but everything to do with other coworkers, one in particular. He was shocked at what one member did. He KNOWS I hate confrontation, and said he knew I hated it, but he was going to confront him anyway because it was wrong. It was time to go home, so I just picked up my purse, and went home. No telling what the guy said to him about me, or that whole team. Probably horrible things, and I wasn't there to defend myself. Why couldn't I just let it be water under the bridge? In this particular case, I SHOULD have stood up to this person when it happened, and my boss said so, too. But I didn't even *think* about what I was doing when I went to my boss and complained. I didn't weigh the pros and cons. I just got up and did it. Where was my inner voice?
Are these bipolar symptoms? Am I friggin' pregnant, as Mark comments (not because I'm fat, but because I threw up that morning for NO REASON)? I don't think the latter is true, but heck, now I'm wondering what is wrong with me.
Maybe nothing. But...I've really changed my habits. And..not for the better.