I've always felt in our relationship that I was the parent and he was the child. He's never taken care of me, yet I've always felt he expects me to take care of him. His pathetic emails sometimes, "I don't have much longer to live" "I"m a crazed old man", it just gets old. He was happiest and felt the most loved after his suicide attempt and I was calling him every week checking on him, and when I stopped, he was like, where are my calls? And then recently he told me he felt like nobody loved him. I can't deal with him, feel sorry for him all you want, you haven't had to be his daughter for 41 years. He abandoned me when I was 1-2 years old until I was 16, and then barely came back into my life, and then disappeared again. I told him he still had his other daughter who he talks to more than about politics in emails, so he should be happy. I don't hear the phone ringing or see any emails on my other email address he has or messages on Facebook, so I see how much he cares. Zip, zero, nadda. All he cares about is his stupid political issue and how he can't "turn me around". I'm a "lost cause" now.
I wonder if I would deal with this issue any differently if I were taking Seroquel?
I can't sleep, once again. I think I'll try eating something and try for Bedtime #2.