My goal is NOT to be medication free. I need medications to keep me from my life theatening depressions. But I don't need anti-psychotics, I hate them, always have. I realize I have been very sick in the past, but I'm not any longer and haven't been in quite some time. Maybe my illness is, for the most part, in remission. I don't need to be overdrugged and in a drunken stupor to save me from myself any longer.
So now I take Lamictal, Zonegran, and Klonipin. A far cry from the time I was on seven psychiatric medications. But I have more of them stockpiled in the drawer, so I can go back to them any time I want, and a pyschiatrist who is not afraid to prescribe when needed.
School is such a downer right now. I just moved speeds so I'm the slowest in the class and it's very demotivating. My new academic for this quarter is a legal class, so I don't know how well I'll do. I'm curious about how much more coherent I'll be at school in the mornings when in the past my Geoden hadn't quite worn off yet.
So far, only positives, aside from the anxiety. We'll see how it goes, day by day.