I also have a ton of Klonipin. My psychiatrist prescribes two of them per day, and I only take one. For that one, I do NOT tell him I only take one because I DO want to hoard them. I haven't even finished my Klonipin prescription from last year, but have been getting refills that would have lasted until June if I had taken them as prescribed. But I don't know when I might need extra, for instance today.
I was so agitated and so afraid of what I might do or say in my state of mind that I took two Klonipin, and it helped immensely. But of course, that's just treating the symptoms, not the cause.
I know I said I was going to stay away from social media, and I haven't been on Facebook in about a month, but even keeping that at bay didn't stop me from attempting to unleash my wrath. I found myself starting to comment on news stories, angry comments, but luckily before I posted them, I remembered my frame of mind, and stopped myself.
I don't think I snapped at my husband, but I did share with him how I was feeling so he would understand if I was impatient or got upset with him. It's so unfair to spouses who live with someone who is bipolar. I just can't imagine what it must be like. Maybe they're attacted to the rollercoaster ride, I have no idea. I know I wouldn't be. I do my best, I really do.
I'm hoping I'll be okay by the time we go on vacation mid-May. It's nothing out of control, I could have a good time the way I am right now. It's just the poor judgement that worries me.